Don’t kill yourself

Alas, there yet remain many more rivers to cross. In fact, there are too many more for comfort. Is it about anxieties or about curses or about allied powerless spiritual shadows to which we pay over-attention? Specifically, is it about the devil or about fears or about the horrendous fact that you have chosen to not know God on own terms?

Just exactly what is the colour of your self-imposed burden? Is it about hard work not being the ever sure talisman everyone makes it or about money falling short here and there or about reward system that is so insane it barks at  excellence but bows with a knowing smile to mediocrity? Is it about relationship that is everything but relationship or about talent that is a curse rather than a blessing or about worship that is not acceptable and therefore unprofitable? Is it about life itself or its end called death?

Whatever it is or is not, The Boss insists you never pay it too much attention. Worry only happens when you worry. But, it is a very useless something. It comes like an answer but it answers nothing, fixes nothing and destroys everything.

Don’t kill yourself over anxiety. Don’t kill yourself over curses, even blessings. Curses are never for you: if you know, you know. As for blessings, they are yours even if you don’t know so.

A very simple matter, that. Blessings come or flow from only one source. Do you know Him? Does He know you?

By the way, please define via a shortlist your understanding of blessings. Cars, children, houses, promotion, spouse, right? Wrong: you see your life? Study to show thyself approved and the quickest way to do that is by listening to a sound teacher.

I recommend: from the beginning, in the middle and at the end, the one and only Global Ba’aba, Dr Abel Damina. He is my beloved father, in whom I am well pleased. Please, try listening to him, even if you can’t. My email address is up here, because I know you shall return to thank me later.

As I was saying, don’t kill yourself over Satan. The poor guy is already dead and eternally defeated by your Saviour. He can do you nothing except your identity crisis weakens you to the point of allowing a dead donkey scare you into submission. Seek and acquire knowledge to understand who you are and what you have and can do in Christ so that you stop being afraid of what is afraid of you!

This is more important than you think. You get to live and lead a far better life. You enjoy a better life in Christ. You fear nobody and nothing and, therefore, nobody can exploit you to give those seeds, which never germinate nor bring forth harvest.

Next, let’s talk about hard work and about money and about reward system. Don’t kill yourself over the trio. You can work hard, so so hard but no money and no result to show for it. Meaning that even when hard work produces money or what you call success, there’s more to it than meets the eye.

That’s one. Two, money itself is another problem. You never have enough of it. Elon Musk of Tesla/SpaceX and Jeff Bezos of Amazon and Bernard Arnault and family of LVMH and Bill Gates of Microsoft and Aliko Dangote of Nigeria -you get that- and a few other real billionaires who together don’t even number up to a millionth of the global population but who in spite of being richer than the rest of the billions of us still work day and night, collecting more of the little we have, to get richer.

No one retires from making money. Even super-rich retirees are busy pulling money-making strings and running up and down, pressing buttons to make more money. Why would you kill yourself over something as depthless and as heightless as that? Plus, money is so good and so powerful that it plays no part in the afterlife.

Stop, go back and read that again -slowly. Please, never forget that. Furthermore, don’t kill yourself over reward nor its system. They never are in sync.

Don’t kill yourself over delayed or failed or never rewards or a system that approbates and reprobates in one fell swoop. Don’t kill yourself, my dear: life is wired like that. Nothing ever adds up, nothing is a constant. One chases a thousand, two chase ten thousand: what lopsided mathematics is that?

Relationship, talent and worship are also unmathematical. No relationship guarantees anything. Your bestie can dupe you or can kill you or can stain you terminally. Your worstie can fix you or can help you or can save you.

You can be talented for nothing. Both the world and your people can despise your talent(s). They can call you arrogant just so your excellence is rendered not good enough. I know you know many monstrously talented persons who are struggling to eke out a living all because, for no fault of theirs, someone somewhere made them a dog, gave them a bad name and lined them up on the guillotine.

Ditto, worship. It is not a magic wand. Did not the Big Man who sits high up there say that when at the end some worshippers call Him Father He would deny ever knowing them? Please, slow down how you worship man and money and power: you get the point now?

Finally, don’t kill yourself over life nor over death. You have to be alive to enjoy life. So, why die? And, why do you kill yourself over death when death has its own time to come for you?

God bless Nigeria!

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Postscript: Please, say a prayer for me. It is my 53rd birthday! Thank You, Jesus!